Time and time again, it has been proven right that the people around you will be friends with you when you are nice to them and when you serve a purpose. When they no longer need you, the distance just drifts apart. It is not their fault, as they might not even realize it themselves. I might even be guilty of this myself...

My aunt once told me this is the way of life. You meet different friends at different stages of your life. You cannot prevent this from happening. How do I comfort myself? Friends who are meant to be with you will stay with you. Those that won't stay, would not. Let the past be the past. Focus on those currently around you. Those that need you now. Be prepared to face them leave you one day, however. It takes two hands to clap, just like in any form of relationship. You can care a lot for others, but if they don't, you just can't force them. Note to self: it is not their fault.

I have many friends around me, but yet, I feel more lonely than ever before...

I am broken, I am weird, strange and different from others, or so this is what I picked up from other 'normal's. I am freak whose mind operates differently from others. It is difficult to get into my wavelength. Should it be a matter?

I am different from you, I am unique. I am true to myself. Love me and hate me the way I am. I do not need to change myself and blend into the crowd to become 'normal'. I do not need to do what everyone is doing. No social conformism is necessary at all. I am unique. I can do things differently. I surprise.

I am broken, but I am still whole. That is why I never needed to find 'another half'. The world is mine to explore, to face. To pursue and excel with the strength that comes from within me. I am my own supportive pillar of strength.